"TO GET THROUGH THE HARDEST JOURNEY..."

"WE NEED ONLY TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME, BUT WE MUST KEEP ON STEPPING." -- CHINESE PROVERB

Hi Friends,

I know I've used this quote before, but once again I find myself in this place. Yesterday, I hid out in my bedroom, but today the heavy-duty meds have kicked in and the steroids are giving me energy. So, once again, I'm ready to fake it until I make it. I think I just needed some time to adjust to the most recent rounds of bad news from the doctors. But I'm OK again, and I need to trust God with my life and know that he will give me the grace needed to thrive in this storm.

So, I told Bill, "Let's be normal for the next 10 days until we meet with the doctors to schedule chemo!" Or, I guess -- as normal as we can be. I've always believed that normal is just a setting on your dryer :-) I sent him and Cam off to work and school this morning. And he is picking up Cameron after school each day and bringing him home to me. I'm not allowed to drive or do much fun stuff on the new meds. This morning, I took 19 pills for breakfast, and the kids helped me fill my med container for the week. I'm back up to almost 70 pills daily. Nate was upset for me, but I told him we should just be glad that there are meds to help me!

The homeschoolers and I had a good day. We got a lot of chores and schoolwork done. Right now, Nate and Isaac, and Molly are all playing at their friends' houses. Cameron is doing homework for sociology class -- he has to watch a TV show and document all the commercials and their target audiences. It's pretty funny! Especially, when they were advertising for a study for lack of sex drive in menopausal women. My poor, autistic 16 year old was mortified.

I'm drinking sparkling water like crazy, because the steroids make me so hungry. And tonight I'm determined to do some Wii Fit Yoga. Gotta love video game workouts! But at least it's something besides laying in a hospital bed.

Bill made chicken tortilla soup in the crock pot and it's bubbling away. He should be home around 6:30-7. The kids are all due at home at 6 p.m.

Life is good. God is great! I love you all!

Much Love,
Michele